Sunday, September 2, 2007

Okay...YES...I am a freak!

I really think I am a freak when it comes to my son Will! I swore I'd never be one of those moms...but I have officially become one. I do have to say it has gotten a wee bit better as he's gotten older! Please tell me if any of you ever experienced this.......
I brought him home from the hospital and although I loved him dearly, the whole experience was terrible! I was in utter panic mode every second of every day thinking he was going to die! Really!! I was freakishly scared to leave him with anyone other than my mom.EVERYTHING had to be done perfectly or I thought he would die. I can't remember, for the life of me, ANY important events that took place for about 6 months. I was a wreck... and sometimes still am. Poor Bryan....you can only imagine!(thats all I will say to that)I sure am glad that stage is over.
Will is starting Mother's Day Out at Yorktown Baptist Church. I know MDO is the best for both of us and I am TRULY ready for it, yet nervous! Am I still a freak???? Why can't I be like other moms that have no problem leaving their children with others? I yearn to have a peace like they do. I know, I know, I just need to give it to God. Let him take the anxiety away from Will and I! UGHHH! any advice?

10 comments:

Twisting His Arm said...

I am there with ya Leslie! My son is almost 7 months and I have only been away from him twice and not for very long. I just don't feel normal when I am away from him. But, I am sure it will only take a couple days of MDO for your anxiety to lessen.

By the way, I want to invite you to my blog (it is private) but I don't have your e-mail address. Can you e-mail it to me at crissyren@hotmail.com? Thanks and I will be checking your comments to see if another mom has some words of wisdom to share! :-) Christina

Sohl Gal said...

I have been that other mom, the one who openly drops her kids off. The way I reason it though is that my child learns trust, respect, and reliance from me, and learns that if I can trust him with another person, he can, too. (And, sometimes, I'm ready to go nuts if I he and are aren't getting along!)

Canadian Bird said...

No worries, Leslie! From what I hear, you're completely normal! Haha
I think that really comes with being a first-time Mom. I could be wrong, not being a Mom yet myself, but working with kids as I do, other Moms have told me...
Good for you for doing MDO. You'll really come to appreciate your time with him even more by spending some YOU time! Blessings.

Amanda's World said...

You are not a freak!! Your a mom!! Riley is almost 2 and has NEVER been with anyone other than Brad and I, not even a grandparent. Yes she went to daycare for a while, but trust me, I cried everyday!!! It was only because I had to. Of course while I was crying Riley was off learning and having fun with other kiddos and was still happy and excited to see me at the end of the day.
It is so hard letting your little one go because NO ONE can parent your child better than you. But, it is good for you both to have time apart. He can learn how to be around others and be his own little person away from you, and it is good for you to have a breather!
I would like to have a day to myself every now and then, but we don't because we trust (and know) no one to watch her!!
Don't worry girl, you will see his excited little face the first time you go and pick him up and everything will be fine. love you!!

Priscilla said...

My son was 6 months old when I went on a trip to Las Vegas as a little vacation from work and everything, I was on the gondola ride in the Ventian and I was crying and bawling like a little baby, everytime I saw a child about my sons age I would cry. Even little personalized plates & spoons with his name made me cry, I missed him so much....the best part of the trip was coming home and when I held him, sometimes you need time apart to appreciate that little grin they get when they see you again.

Tiffany said...

I'm that other mom , as well. I totally give my child to someone who is trustworthy and loveable. You son will learn trust and respect and reliance. As long as you have that with the caregiver. You will be a better mom because of it. Now when they approach the teen years, letting go becomes a little harder.

BAF JANES said...

I love my sons, but I am a much better mommy when I've had my own time. You'll enjoy it after a while. You'll find yourself saying, "Wow! I actually do have a life outside being a mom." Then you'll strut around thinking, "Yeah, I'm a hot mama!"

BAF JANES said...

Oops. I'm listed under the wrong name. The BAF JANES comment was made by Alisa from DAWagners. I forgot to log out. Sorry! My statement of being a "hot mama" does not reflect the opinions of the BAF JANES ministry; however, most (if not all) of us here at JANES think you are pretty hot! =)

Anonymous said...

Hey. You may think it is easy to leave a kid but most moms have anxiety. We talk ourselves into believing that they will be okay...and guess what? I bet Will will do GREAT!! Plus, it is healthy for you all to have that little break. I totally relate but it will be fine!!

April said...

Hooray! Your first day of MDO was a success, right?! It will totally get better but you will always miss him. and if you're a freak then so am I!